Thursday, November 5, 2009

Determined...but why?

So I sit here every morning and open up my WW Tracker and enter in my points for the day before, if I missed anything, and my AP. I add my points for the day so far and then think, hmmm...why am I so focused? Why am I so dedicated this time?

"Cause you are not happy!" who said that? "Cause you feel or felt like crap", okay, so that little voice is talking to me again! And yes on both those questions. I feel or felt like crap and yes I am getting happier. I have been very focused for the past 12 weeks. On Tuesday it will be three months since I made the decision to change my life. 3 months already! Time flies....but I want to reflect on that a bit. What have I done in those 3 months?

I rejoined WW and have lost 38 lbs since August 10th. I have lost 51.1 lbs since January 2008. I am proud of that.

I started exercising. Not a lot at first, but a little was all I needed. Now 12 weeks later I workout 2-3 times a week, at a gym and have aquired a personal trainer. I have to start with that trainer but I have one. WOW!

I have a better attitude. I am more positive and confident.

I have restful sleep. I have been able to sleep in the same bed as my hubby for the first time in years. He snores you see "Like a Freight Engine" and since my activity has increased I am so tired that I can sleep through it for the most part.

I have stopped watching TV. I don't watch nearly what I used to. I haven't even seen any Grey's Anatomy this season, it's PVR'd but that's it. I am just so busy. Work has been crazy, then home, eat, tidy up, and then off to workout. I think I need to refocus this and make a schedule of some sort to ensure that I am spending time with hubby and daughter. I know that daughter is going through withdrawls. It's very hard to spend time with her during the week. I get home at 6:30pm and she is ready for bed and getting settled around 8pm. 1.5 hours is not very long for quality time. I might need to rethink that.

So here's a question, how do you break a habit? DD is so used to falling asleep on DH that at 8pm she is on his knee and there till 9pm. Then at 9pm it's TV time for DH and me if I'm there. DH is a little bit stuck in this pattern and we need to get him out of it. He is sick at the moment with a sinus cold and I am trying to keep my distance so our quality time is limited because of that and we have had company for 2 months almost.

Life is crazy and busy and trying to refocus and get a handle on that is very challenging. I need to get a schedule going of when and where we need to be and what we need to do to be together more, all three of us.

I think that's what I am going to do! I am going to have to done something to get ourselves organized so that we can spend more time together!
So the past 3 months have been great! I have lost a bunch of weight, feel great and I am more focused then I have ever been in my life. I just need to work on a couple of things!


  1. I think there just comes a time when it's "My Time" and we just put our minds to it and do it. I'm glad it's your time now *smile*.

    As for the girl falling asleep with dad doesn't really sound like a problem to me. Sounds like that is their time with each other which isn't a bad thing. If it's because then she ends up out on the couch half the night then maybe it's time for him to start either trying story time in her room or carrying her to bed after she's asleep. We go through this a little with our 8 yr old sometimes with her wanting to fall somewhere other than her bed. I just remind her that I might let her once in awhile but it's not going to be a regular thing and she seems to fuss less then when I make her go to her room. It comes down to all what they can get away with lol.

    Glad to hear you're doing so well and feeling so well mentally. I really do believe it's all in our heads anyway.

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